SF: striver or seeker?

I am seeker at this point of my life. I am searching for something right now and I am struggling to find the right words to describe how am I feeling. I am not sure why I have been quiet lately and have not been talking so much. Whatever, I don't hope I will stay like this for a long time. My best regards to all of you......

The first image is a picture I took of someone I know and the second one was taken by my sister while I was walking away from my flat.